Random thoughts from my notes

Just to keep my head clear, i keep a journal of sorts in the notes app on my phone. just writing down things i can stop thinking about, my reactions to things that happened to me, my feelings, you get the picture. i definitely wont be posting everything here. some things just have to stay buried. but ill post whatever here. i have to use different names for people mentioned i suppose. i only use their first name in my entries but it feels weird putting their actual names here even if you cant identify them by that.

ill just organize them by year

2020

i wish i could just lock him up. infect his mind like a tapeworm and spread throughout all his organs so he cant escape me. get under his skin so even if he hollows himself out ill still be there. 8-26

i get too easily attached to anyone who's nice to me. 8-21